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to WORDPRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok.. before you growl at me from being fickle minded... allow me to self-justify my actions...
*clears throat and composes self*
I just couldn't stand the stupid ADS on my blog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't need to scare the shit out of myself every time my poor eyes landed on yellowish teeth deserving whitening, or flabby wrinkly stomach deserving flattening or even blinking billboard virus-look-alike stating that I'm the 999,999th winner!!!!!
@_@
So, despite loving how simple the functions of LJ are, it is not enough reason for me to compromise on my blogs-should-not-have-nonsense-ads belief.
Besides, wordpress offers privacy settings too, so I'm happy with it.
(only downfall is I have to pay if I wanna customise my theme layout @#$%&)
Anyway,
GOMENASAI!!!!!!
DUI BU QI!!!!
MAAF BANYAK BANYAK!!!!
SORRYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!
please change your links, and follow me at
http://feliciapeh.wordpress.com/
p/s. commenting is easier on wordpress too. So no more bashing from a few you-know-who... lol...
A fateful and adventurous day.
I decided to shed my half-brunette image (with ugly black roots dominating half of the length of my hair)...
And go back to basics... after 3-4 long years of 'hair moratorium'... and yes, I just invented that collocation... bluek
This could not have happened without the ever brave L, who willingly took on the challenge, and helped me in this $13 transformation (Loreal hair dye was on special!!!)
Behold....
The new me~
they said I look less Asian wth
they said i look emo and gothic wth
they said i look different wth
i said i couldn't recognize myself at first wth
I said i love my new makeover ;)
I will not lie, my faith had been slightly shaken as I grew up, sometimes I am even a little intimidated by the radicals and the judgmental in church. I no longer pride myself for having the faith of a child as I become more skeptical about a lot of things and happenings (i do blame that on 'critical thinking' training in tertiary level), and I find myself questioning the essence of my faith and the religions of the world.
Death, eternity, the Judgment Day... Never have I found the relevance of them, as I'm still young, not until recently, when all feels so near to me, as the realization of how small and meek I am, in this universe.
One thing that I never doubted, there is one true God almighty, who has always been faithful to me, and see me through it all.
Anyway, I decided that I needed to get a word from God, today, to help me clarify my doubts, and overcome my unbelief...
Woke up at 7 sharp, and went into the bathroom. Once again, my stupid building had not heated up the water yet and it was just impossible to shower and clean up using icy cold water, when the temperature of the day was 8 celcius degree. Knowing that the water would only start heating up at 9am, and that would mean missing the 8.45am service, I decided to go to the 11am service.
After drinking a glass of milk... my stomach turned so hard... and I ended up in the loo for more than 30 tortureous minutes... I kept telling myself that I got to get myself together no matter how, as I cannot miss church.
And this is when things change...
Heard of the saying 'We can plan our work, but God works our plans'?
After struggling through the stomach pain and putting on my facial routine, I just felt an urge - a tugging urge, to just sit down and have a quiet time, just me and Him, just us...
I have been neglecting my quiet time, other than praying before meals and before I sleep, my bible has only been active during sundays and church events.... T.T
Anyway, i turned on a hillsong album, picked up my bible, my notes, and started going through sermons taken down in the past... and it went on for more than an hour...
It has been so long since I felt excited, brimming with expectation, waiting upon the Word of the Lord...
The first message that realy struck me was...
'God is a still small voice' (1 Kings 19:9-12)
If we only look for God at big spectacular places, we might just miss Him in His own small ways.
We humans, always crave for a miracle, an event, something big, to have our faith reassured. We forget the still small voice, ringing in our hearts, telling us the answers we need but may tend to ignore....... And we complain God being unreal in our lives.....
and...
IMAGE = I'm Ageing
Our image is what we become as we age.
There is no doubt that we live in a world that tries to be God, and many bow down to the image of the world.
So, we should stop following the culture, but create the CULTURE of a Kingdom Image!
Out of the many messages and bibles verses I have engaged in, I was liberated of my doubts.... as I read about submission to God...
James 4:6-7
God resists the proud, but He gives grace to the humble. Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.
Us, as humans, tend to be really proud. We believe we are intelligent creatures, self-dependent, and self-sufficent.
We forget what we have, our knowledge, our skills, our ability to see, touch, taste and learn, are all blessings from the creator. So none of our achievements belong to us... But rather, we were empowered by God and blessed with the means to achieve what we have.
The outcomes of our lack of humility come in many forms.
Firstly, we may face continued conflicts. Because we are proud, and not willing to LET GO of our need to be in control of the situation, we find ourselves keep falling back on the same conflict, unable to move on from there.
Secondly, we may be left with unanswered prayers. Not because He loves us less, but because we either don't pray or we are praying without believing in our own prayer or we are praying with wrong intentions.
Thirdly, we compromised our living, in which I often fell short for.
Fourthly, we lack divine fear, believing that we are invincible.
Armageddon or not, death or living, ETERNITY is our TRUE finish line.
Everything within our grasp, which we could see and feel, are all temporary. The time would come when all these will pass away, and we would be left with eternity. Where we want to spend our eternity, is solely our choice.
There are still many uncertainties and doubts, but I am willing to give myself and my Lord another chance, to know Him more in order to understand, to move from belief to an experience, to have a relationship of trust with Him.
Lord,
I recommit myself to you, this day. Thank you Lord, for never giving up on me.
500 days of summer was quite refreshing for me...
Putting aside those american stereotypes and over-dramatization of women's eagerness and men's lack of commitment (The Ugly Truth, He's Not That Into You), but portraying the simple feeling of falling in love and coping with heart break through creative means...
Besides, I totally love the Author's Note in the beginning...
The following is a work of fiction.
Any resemblance to persons living or dead is purely coincidental.
Especially you Jenny Beckman.
Bitch.
hahahahaha.... genius....
Anyway...
I was pretty on task for the most part of today...
Till 5pm.....
After that, it was quite a stretch...
An example of a non-disruptive off-task behavior during lessons...
Loving the BLING =D
No joke.
Not because I'm down right lazy (maybe just 13% of possibility) but largely because it is TSHMD2!!!! Short for The Super Horrible Menstrual Day 2....... @_@
Due to my yesterday's revelation, I had to refrain myself from whining like a annoying-baby-who-deserves-nothing-less-t
Anyway, if I have to be optimistic. TSHMD2 also equals to LTBLASMWCD!!!!
What? How can you not know what is LTBLASMWCD?????
Fine... It's License To Be Lazy And Stuff Myself With Chocolates Day! Remember it well and don't let me repeat myself k...
*shoes, rotten eggs, and useless textbooks were thrown at me*
T.T
Ok...
Let me show off how unproductive my day has been...
1. I was constantly in torment.
2. I took all sorts of medication given by L without a word of complain..(i tend to make a huge fuss when I had to down those ewww tasting drinks, but was too exhausted and in pain to put up a show today...swt)
3. I tried to distract myself from the pain by watching Karei Naru Spy, then Coraline, then tried playing Sorority Life on Facebook, then got hooked for a few hours on it, then switched to yahoo online make over games, then eyes got too tired so tried to nap, then kept getting woken up by text messages (grrrrrr), then got fed up and woke up, then called L to moan, then stuff my face with chocolates, then go browse the internet, then read blogs for a few hours, then watched The Beach, then had bread and cereal drink, then showered, then played Sorority Life again, then typing this crap.........
Both Coraline and The Beach were rather awesome in their own ways. Coraline was actually a recommendation from our early literacy lecturer, and I do agree that it is not a typical children's story, and leaves you thinking. The Beach on the other hand, was rather enthralling as well. However, the critics and its ratings on IMDB would beg to differ, as they felt that the movie was a shallow adaptation of the book. Well, I ain't read the book yet, but I would say it managed to triggered my interest in reading it up!
Sometimes I do felt that movie critics should give the production team a break. Come on, a movie is to be enjoyed, and not to have all its goofs such as the different tattoo position on Leonardo's arm pin-pointed out!!!
Ok... Enough for now, back to Sorority Life ;P
All it takes, is to sit back, stop wallowing, suck up your complains, and start counting your blessings...
Sounds impossible? Well, not really.
C= Complains ; B = Blessings
C: It's raining so terribly and it's supposed to be spring already!!!!!
B: At least we won't have to worry about famine and dryness in the land.
C: I'm having horrible menstrual pain..again... Why oh why is this so unfair????
B: I'm a healthy woman, who is able to have my menstrual cycle.
C: LINGUIST 307 is such a pain in the ass!!!!!!!! Why do I even have to do this stupid assignment?
B: We have been 'paid' to study in this great place called Auckland ;)
C: SHIT SHIT SHIT!!!! Why can't my flatmate not sing at the top of her voice??? Has she even heard herself before???
B: Pheww... at least my flatmate is no psycho-path or murderer, and her hobby is cleaning! What can get better than that?
C: Why can't I have the ability and the ka-ching to shop and doll up as much as I want to?????
B: I am comfortable in whatever I'm wearing, and a happy person is a beautiful person =)
C: Why must I be so clumsy and hurt myself all the time especially before some important performance or when huge responsibility is at stake???
B: I wouldn't have known my ability to push my limits if such circumstances do not occur.
C: Why must I be bonded for 5 years and leave Auckland at the end of this year???????
B: I'm becoming an adult by going through such transitions in life. Shedding off my dreamy and immature self to become better and stronger me!
This is my latest revelation.
To be happy or whiny in life........
Really, it's all up to you =)
The streets seem really quiet too...
No candles can be seen, lit around the gardens,
No lanterns hanging on trees and plants,
No children giggling and chasing each other around,
No adults gambling and cheering at a corner...
But God has been great, and blessed me with a family here,
Had a lovely dinner,
Had some lovely mooncakes,
Had some lovely conversations,
Watched Monsters Inc.
Why complain, when I'm more fortunate than many?
... When I'm still breathing and typing this entry, while others are mourning and struggling for their lives,
... When I'm thankful to have my loved ones under the care of God.
News about the natural disasters in Samoa, Indonesia and Taiwan,
Serve as wake up calls,
Remind us to stop wallowing, or dwelling in self-pity,
Be thankful that you and I,
Could still see another day.
Cherish your loved ones when they are still living.
Happy Mid-Autumn~
Worst lamb shank I have ever tasted. Thank God for the great company. At least that day was saved.
Do I fancy seeing a world in pink?
Tell me you're envious... huhuhu.... *slaps self*
All in all it was a great 3 hours... Before we were thrown back into the horrible reality of EDUC 348 due the next day @#&^*%
Anyway, let's just recall the good ol' parts ;)
Sze Wei called me the weather girl @_@ just because I started the habit of checking the weather website everyday... its' one of the very rare good habits that I picked up from L ok...
Anyway, the weather girl aka me told them the weather is gonna be fantastic.
Then it rained @#^$&%*
...and I lost my credibility...
only for a moment...
hehehehe...
as the skies brightened up shortly after, leaving us the greatest weather of the entire rainy week!!!! Woohooo!!!!
So what do you do on a yatch for 3 hours?
1. The girls went goo goo gah gah over our hot skipper. The skipper from our opponent looks like a 'nelayan', (quote from someone from our yatch...lol) Have I mentioned that we were divided into 2 teams to race one another? Have not? Lalalalalala... Well now you know... Let's continue...
2. Camwhored, camwhored, squeezed into any pictures possible, and automatically posed when we saw a camera... Well, we are a bunch of attention seekers that's why we are becoming teachers (so that we could have 50 students fixated on us - that's the ideal case by the way ..swt)
3. Had yummy Nasi Goreng Nyonya and Coke underneath the warm sun while we smoothed on the waters... Mannn, that's the life of the rich and famous...ahhhhhh.... (they might have a better menu though, those with names we can't even pronounced...lol)
4. Listened to Faris singing 'We are sailing' passionately. Yea, we just listened and stared at him. We didn't join in. Lol...
5. Watched sceptically while Con did his magic tricks. We were the worst bunch of audience a magician could have. I bet he felt like slapping us a few times...lol... But we were impressed ;P
6. Boo-ed at the opponent when our yatch was faster. Got boo-ed when we were behind.
7. Took turns to steer the wheel and pretend to be Captain Jack Sparrow the Posh and Expensive Version.
8. Stopped side by side with our opponents and passed the poor hungry crew the food which was on our yatch... hahahaha....
9. Celebrated Akmar and Intan's birthday~ The cakes were OMG yummy!!!
10. Had pillow talk sessions with the guys... *clears throat*... Hey, who knows they actually have a sensitive side to them ;)
11. Listened to Faris sing 'We are sailing' again. Didn't join either. Lol.
12. Took more pictures. Like duhh...
13. Cleaned up. With Sze Wei leading the team as our honored Rubbish Lady. Hahahaha....
14. Took a last picture with Mr HOT aka our skipper.
15. Returned in high spirits before feeling suicidal again....
hahahaha... here are some pictures to make you guys burn with envy.....
The End.
My first attempt on trademe.co.nz
Stunning chocker
It's kinda fun
Anyone interested?
If no one bids on it
Means we're fated to be together
Errrrrrrrr.......
Lol...
Stunning chocker
It's kinda fun
Anyone interested?
If no one bids on it
Means we're fated to be together
Errrrrrrrr.......
Lol...
Food brings us together,
Chatters, laughter, silly gossips,
Rare pillow talk moments,
This place has seen us through,
Since our first step on this land~
Chatters, laughter, silly gossips,
Rare pillow talk moments,
This place has seen us through,
Since our first step on this land~
Thanks Con and Sze Wei, for making dull Wednesday undull ;P
Manage to guess what's APAD???
Come on.. Give it a try....
No try? *sad*
Fine...
*bangs on the table and gives my self some pathetic drumroll...*
tada...
I'm gonna start A Photo A Day (APAD)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is an attempt to keep me consistent in the blogosphere, to nurture this love relationship between me and Bluey (that's my camera btw @_@ ), and also to help me see things around me in a different light =)
Of course I'm still going to blog about significant journeys of mine... Even if no one is interested or couldn't care less about me being alive... Heck, this is my blog, and I'm not writing to impress but to be true to myself ;)
So... the APAD for today is...
my little europe...
I believe there will be a day,
I will roam around the world,
explore the many miracles of God,
conquer my dreams and my fantasies...
Not a dime by my loved ones...
Through my own efforts...
As a proof,
that I have grown,
I am independent,
I am an adult =)
I will roam around the world,
explore the many miracles of God,
conquer my dreams and my fantasies...
Not a dime by my loved ones...
Through my own efforts...
As a proof,
that I have grown,
I am independent,
I am an adult =)
Have been eating healthy...
.... errm... once in a while la.....
but most of the time, i'm transforming into a pig... a cute one *clears throat*... by devouring sinful desserts...
like this...
lalalalala...
Well, Fab Sab had made her mark in Auckland... literally.... Lol...
and this is the effect of having 2 girls in a small room...
Mannn... Looks like we are having some sort of garage sale... Couldn't be helped as Fab Sab actually brought her whole year worth of make up and skin care products... I'm not even joking... Tell me who actually brings a BIG bottle of baby lotion (i think it's around 600 ml) and a travel size one too??? LOL...
OK... Enough of detouring, now to the main focus of this entry...
I believe many would have known by now my lament over my poor 5 month-old camera... How I thought I actually saved it, but how it actually failed me in the end... Well, my baby Exy died a painful, piercing death..
Didn't realise the crack in the lens until it suddenly blacked out, and I checked the lens by zooming them to the max...
Haih...................
I was so distraught... like seriously....... With my finances getting tighter than my jeans, having something worthed 300 plus of my hard-earned new zealand dollars crashed for good ... You get the deal...
I tried to hold my tears when I called up daddy and mummy to break the news to them... The last thing I really want is to let them know of my lacking, and my misfortune... I guess when one tries to be an adult, one can't easily sweep off that silly ego...
Thank God for amazing parents, they were so supportive and encouraging... and without any hesitation, they gave me the green light to get a new one, using the money they have been saving up for me consistently every month... Eventhough I was extremely happy, my 'adult ego' sort of took over for a moment, as I felt shy having to ask for money at this age of mine... Haih... Sometimes I do hope I could start working my ass off so that I could actually lessen my parents' burden...(bet my dad will be greatly pleased about this statement and start browsing for a new SUV...lol)
It's weird really... Both my previous cameras (my first one was a Samsung and the second one was the Casio) were broken because of some accidents by my friends... The former because my friend borrowed it for a trip to Genting, and returned me with the lens cracked and filled with scratches... Best part, that friend of mine acted as if nothing happened, and I didn't even confronted her about it but pretended that I'm so cool about it, while trying to hide the damage from my parents and lived without a camera *hits old me hard on the head!*
As for the latter, it was kinda explained in my old entry...
...
Anyway,
After submitting my assignment, i went camera hunting! With the help from L, and me browsing through Price Spy and Camera Reviews... I got myself a new blue baby!
Canon Ixus 95IS!!! Or known as Canon Ixy 110IS (for the Japanese model)
Nothing fancy, basic, has image stabilizer, and produces really sharp and clear images!!!
As much as I fell in love with Sony T90 or T900, my logical sense came to me and forbid me from splurging 600-700 bucks just to satisfy my expensive cravings... Besides, camera depreciates fast, and one can never be up-to-date with the latest model and technology forever... Hence practicality, as well as appropriate budget come first!!!
Presenting my new baby~
Dad asked me whether this camera is falling-off-stairs-proof @_@
Well, seems like I gotta reduce eating out and entertainment activities for the next few months...
*glance at national bank online account*
Sighhhh....
Before I ruin the mood of this entry, I shall allow myself to indulge in vanity and post pictures of me getting all pumped up and ready for the 'glamorous night' at NZ Fashion Weekend...
My wardrobe... in which i hope i didn't suck too bad... @_@
....
Ok.. let the ranting begin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Who would have thought that it would rained so bad
We missed the one and only fashion show that night due to misinformation... FAIL FAIL!!!!!
The quality of stuff sold at the designer garage sale was really disappointing... Even found faux LV bags selling for $50-$70!!!!!!!! How is that even possible or ethical???? FAIL FAIL FAIL!!!!!!!
Didn't get any good buys, came back empty-handed... FAIL FAIL FAIL FAIL!!!!!
The only freebie we got was a diet coke T.T FAIL FAIL FAIL FAIL FAIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
To top everything up, my camera suddenly died... went black out... thought it was weird then realised that there is actually a BIG TRIANGULAR HOLE IN THE LENS!!!!!!! Must have missed it when I 'fixed' my camera the last time.... And the camera is totally UNSAVEABLE.... FAIL FAIL FAIL FAIL FAIL FAIL!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGHHHHHH... How can the ending be so much of a failure?????????? *grabs hair*
Ok, now to the optimistic and happier part... Daddy and mummy were totally cool with everything and asked me to get a new camera... Love you guys gazillion much <3 <3 <3
L willingly browsed and searched for a better camera model for me... (a total blessing as it would have been mission impossible for a tech-idiot like me)
Fab sab and the boys' rental car got towed away - It was'nt supposed to be a good thing but it provided me much needed laughter... hahahaha.....
Well, tomorrow will be a better day~
Despite the small incident in the morning when Oxana knocked on the door to complain about the 'noise' and the bathroom incident, the day took a great turn for the better.
The clouds decided to suck up their tears, the skies brighten up, class was fun and engaging, and I BLOODY GOT AN A- (83%) for THE BLOODY LINGUIST 307 WHICH WE ALL THOUGHT WE ARE GONNA FAIL!!
That's not all, with Fab Sab joining the guys for the Erotica Expo trip
But I doubt that I would have the luxury of digging into the Designer Garage Sales though... Who wants to bless me with some ka-ching??? Lol... That's not all, L is finally back from Brisbane and it's great to hear from L after the absence~
Now I have approximately 1 hour and 20 minutes to doll up for the glamorous night-out!
*Looks into closet*
*Frantically searches in and out*
*Clothes
Damn... I'm so gonna look like Ugly Betty without the ponchos and braces....
Helppppppp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Even so, my daily schedule has been packed with events... fun ones actually... but can't help feeling that they all come at the wrong time T.T
Took some crazy pics during the last day of BFM
There were many many more... But wouldn't want to blind you guys...lol...
Then we had Raya celebrations the day after... And the whole bunch of us (nearly 30 i think) practically squashed ourselves into Min and Piqah's abode (2-bedroom apartment)... It was cool to see our Malay peers in their best attire, and we stuff our faces with food, food, and good traditional FOOD........ YUM!
which was a short celebration for me too as I went back early without joining in the 'Guitar Hero' Battles, to work on my 3000 word essay as well as Project 001.... Mannnnnnnn.....
... And it just gets busier...
Fab Sab is coming to New Zealand for a week from Sydney, and I'm playing host~ So while planning her itinenary, I have to take into account classes, Project 001, Meeting with Tan Bee for LANGTCHG 302, the bloody 3000 word essay, the upcoming 302 presentation, the LG Worship Night (which I'm not sure whether I can make it), DV8 (which I'm not sure whether I can make it too), L's birthday and LINGUIST 307 research report.... I am definitely a SuperWoman la... *teng teng teng... teng teng teng teng....*
I do pride myself as a planner... but I'm not exactly sure how I'm faring now... @_@ coz i'm still squeezing in daily dosage of k-dramas and American reality tv shows into my crazy schedule... not forgetting the endless distraction such as facebook and photo-editing... *kill me kill me*
i'm becoming....
*suicidal suicidal....* WTH
lalalalalalalalalalala............... LOL
Many of my peers have blogged about their supreme hatred and suicidal intentions regarding LINGUIST 307. We even thought about dying together, digging a grave, partying and playing guitar hero underground WTH.
To my wildest surprise, the test wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Perhaps my expectations were mortifyingly low, but at least I don't feel like I'm gonna fail that paper for sure.. Oh God forbid...
So after days of torture, I allowed myself to succumb to temptations and went off karaoke-ing with a cool bunch of people. 3000 word essay? What? What is that? Lalalalala... That can so wait.... Lol...
As usual, we were never a punctual bunch, and the group grew bigger as time passed. Sooner than we knew, there were 15 of us (or was it 17?) rocking it out in BB Club. We sang Michael Jackson to Disney to Oldies to many many many Jay Chou to Black Eyed Peas.... 'I gotta feeling' seemed to be our theme song as it was picked twice =)
As for me, I didn't really sing. Only got to hold the mic twice in 3 hours, didn't get any solo and was merely filling in parts... But hey, i totally enjoyed myself, swaying, grooving, and getting into the songs. Besides, I learned to play bluff using dices. The game became more fun after we added the element of punishment, and at time as such, I'm grateful to be a girl coz the guys don't really wanna hit me hard *yay*
Haven't partied for a long long while. Contrary to people's impression of me, i'm not a party person ( btw who the heck started the speculation of a dancer has to be a clubber or a worship leader has to be a regular in karaoke or even people with dimples are great drinkers??? @_@ ) Let me count the number of times I make appearances in clubs... hmm... 4 times in my life and that was also when there were special events like Foam Party etc, and I don't drink, never got accustomed to the acquired taste and prefer juice or soda any time...
I don't need to get 'high' through booze or drugs.....
credit: this pic is edited by K-Ann
...great company does the trick just well ;)I got my laundry done, pressed and folded.
I whipped my
I had an interesting experience during The Box Woman theater performance, which is basically made up of only 3 performers that combined elements of street theater, circus language, and emphasised the Indian culture of the Amazon. It was so simple, but the impact was amazingly overwhelming. It was also a one-on-one experience, leaving each of us stunned beyond words.
Looking into the box to see the Lady and hear her special prophecy is rather mind-blowing~
Then, I had an amazing lunch/dinner with L at Nando's - and we walloped a whole chicken and 2 small sides between us. Damn, that meal was evil...
We watched Up too... It's amazingly heart-warming and ridiculous in many ways, yet it was so rich with memorable events and had various meaningful portrayal of values and lessons... The cinema was filled with laughter as well as a tear or two slipping off from our eye wells...
Really don't want this day to end... As reality is gonna struck too... 3000 word essay... GET AWAY!
